Today, we’d like to share a piece written by another member of our CP Library Writers’ Group. Sharon Holzscherer has self-published one novel, PATTERNS OF DISORDER (available now on Amazon.com), and is currently working on her next piece, hopefully to come in the near future. She shares with us what it’s like for her to write.
Being an author is amazing. The best part is that you get to create a world. No longer do you have to think about how you could have made that movie better or given a character a more interesting motivation. You are now the creator. You can bring people to life. You can create new places or show your own particular viewpoint of an existing place. And you can make anything happen. Well, almost.
You see, you start from this position of supreme power. Everything is potential. You can do anything until you start to write. And then a curious thing happens. At least it does to me. I lose control of the book. The people whom I brought into existence take over. They tell me, “You can’t make me say that because I would not say that. I have to stay true to who I am.” The creator can only stand by and watch (and type) as the creations write their own story. And it may not go as I want.
This is particularly difficult for me since I write mystery/conspiracy books. Inevitably, for the sake of the story, someone must die. So now we have the other side of the coin. I have the power to create someone but I am also responsible for that character’s death. It is hard to imagine how traumatic this is for me. When I am writing, the story becomes more real than my life around me. (This may be why meals around the house are rather sporatic and random when I’m writing!) The people in the book invade my thoughts and dreams. And I know them better than my best friends or family, because I not only gave birth to them but I created their personalities. Something which parents might wish to do but actually have little control over. And then I kill one of my creations. Even if I have known from the start that this person was created solely to die, it is very difficult. I have procrastinated sometimes for days so that I don’t have to write the scene. You see, if I don’t write the scene, the person is not dead.
These are the twisted thoughts of a writer. It is amazing. And scary. And tragic. But I wouldn’t change a thing. So I hereby apologize to all those whom I must kill. Sacrifices must be made for the sake of the story.
Go ahead and sacrifice, Sharon. We’re waiting for more!